The biggest challenge

 

There’s no denying that the last month has been the hardest month of my life. The next month is going to be harder. Am I prepared for that? No. Will I cope? Yes. I’m not quite sure how yet but I know I will. Friends and family keep telling me how much they admire my strength, yet I don’t feel very strong. However, hearing that gives me the boost I need to carry on and knowing it’s coming from those who know me best and those I trust most in the world reminds me that everything will somehow be ok.

I don’t want to go too much into the situation, it’s not meant to be an emotional read, but if you’re reading this now, you’ve probably read previous blog posts or follow me already on social media and will know that my Dad has cancer. You may also know from recent posts, or maybe even my lack of posts, that things have deteriorated pretty quickly. A few weeks ago we were summoned to a stuffy room in a hospital ward and told that Dad had a matter of weeks to live. Those words left me speechless, lost and broken.

Back in June not long after his diagnosis, we were told he’d be lucky to have a year. At the time and for a while afterwards that speechless, lost and broken feeling overwhelmed me, but soon it was a case of getting on with things. Dad coped so well with a LOT of chemo, he had good days and bad days but generally and in comparison to many others undergoing cancer treatment, he was pretty lucky. At the time of diagnosis, we were told the cancer was incurable and any treatment was to prolong his life and keep him comfortable. His positivity and love for life, his open attitude towards alternative remedies and his middle finger up to cancer gave us all hope. One of his scans surprised even the medical professionals and of course gave us even more hope to cling to.

Fast forward a few months and it’s a different picture. That speechless, lost and broken feeling isn’t going anywhere, and as I watch my Dad deteriorate daily knowing there’s not a lot I can do except be there and spend time with him, the only thing I can do to ease the heartache is to learn how to become a better person from it. The devastation has allowed me to sit back and look at the world in a different light and although it upsets me immensely that it has taken me til now, as a result of the biggest challenge I’ve faced, to start having a mindset shift, it’s the one positive thing I can take and share. Read my next post to find out more and please, don’t wait til you face adversity to change your mindset. Seriously, cliche as it sounds, learn to live every day like it’s your last!

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  • On the road again… to an exciting, happy future (and more Grahams!)

    A few little life changes (for the better!) and it’s been a crazy few weeks on the road again up and down (mainly down!) the country which has taken us way further South from the anticipated Grahams so I wanted to update so that anyone interested could keep track of my progress, or, indeed, lack of! By this stage, I had hoped to have done around 10. I also hoped to have the A-Z fully underway and on the road to raising the profile of our fundraising efforts. As it often does however, life took over and I find myself around 200 miles South of the nearest Graham as I write this. I’m disappointed that it’s been a slower start, but sometimes we gotta do what we have to do and in this instance, a few more weeks of life on the road was what we had to do.

    That compromise, however, means my brain is full of positive vibes, big plans, new goals, new dreams and new challenges and without the trips South of the border, I maybe wouldn’t have that. The Grahams will still be there and the delay in starting just makes me want to push even harder to succeed.

    I’ve been training like a beast while I have been away, focussing on getting myself into the best shape I can be for the upcoming 16+ ascents of Mount Everest. Ok… that’s just an analogy I like to use for the 223 remaining Grahams but it sounds good eh? The main Graham, my Dad, is doing pretty damn good right now too which makes it all even more motivating. He had an appointment last week with his consultant where we found out the tumour has almost halved which literally was the best news we could have heard, considering only a few months ago, they didn’t know if the treatment would work at all!

    It’s funny how such a shit thing puts everything else into perspective. My Dad and I have spent more time together recently, even with me travelling a lot, than we ever have in my adult life and we’re enjoying each others company so much more; acting like complete goofballs, laughing at things that probably aren’t funny and doing things that we usually would find pretty boring and monotonous like visits to TK Maxx and trips to collect batteries from caravans! He, or his cancer, also encouraged me to make some pretty big life decisions, to be completely ok with some that were made for me and to see the best in people, life and the trials and tribulations it throws at us. I’ve known for a long time that there were certain aspects of my life I wasn’t happy with and only from this, did I decide to do something about it. My life is now emptied of bad attitudes, negativity and weak, unprofessional, jealous individuals and instead is full of happiness, love, positivity, memories and people that truly matter!

    If you’ve read this far, always remember this:

    1. If you are not obsessed with the life you are living, change it!
    2. The way you react to a situation has the power to change the situation into something better!

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  • Trimester 2: Another rollercoaster ride!
  • Exercise in Pregnancy
  • October Workout 11
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  • October Workout 10
  • Omni Bumps- Upper Body 4
  • Omni Bumps Workout- Lower Body 4
  • Omni Bumps Workout- Upper Body 3
  • Omni Bumps Workout- Lower Body 3
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